I don't have any snazzy title for this entry. nothing inspired me. my sleeping pattern is way off. as much as I love the weekends they truly are the bully to my sanity. things are so different than what I could ever imagine. just life in general. schedules. boyfriends. problems. school. attitudes. friends. or should I say no friends. I don't know if I'm okay with having no friends. Well except Sam, but he feels obligated to because I'm his girlfriend. I let plenty of people down. I think thats one reason why it's okay I don't have friends. But I miss that company. I know I'm not a good person. And you can give me reasons ALL day. It won't change anything. Time changes everything. But I understand that I don't deserve the time of day. So seeing as I am this shitty persona I always find it in me to let people back into my life. Not the best of people. Ex friends. Ex boyfriends. I'm just a lonely person. A lonely, sad recluse. But I have to make best with the resources I got.

Family. check.
Health. check.
Education. check.

everything else is just a supporting role is what is a play of my life.