Us.

"We wear our scarves just like a noose
But not 'cause we want eternal sleep
And though our parts are slightly used
New ones are slave labor you can keep"

I like where things are going I suppose. There are things that could change but I'm not one to rush things. I've decided to make an effort to make new friends than stay alone. It's just better that way. No one deserves to be lonely, no matter how shitty of a person they are. It's like when snakes shed their skin. I just need to shed. Being comfortable is number one to people these days. It's all about your comfort zone. Well maybe it's not good enough. There is so much out there to experience. I have only skimmed the surface. But then again I don't know how to swim. So that's first on the list of things to do. Then I can take off. By summer next year I will be finally moved out. There are 2 plans that can be fulfilled. Me and Sam get an apartment or Me and Sam, Nick and Erinn, and who else gets a house. A house is initially the better idea because of the privacy and pet policy. But who knows what will follow through. I would like to get out of this area and move into St.Louis. But that's months from now. I'm sure my parents will be excited to see me go. I need to put on my adult suit and get out into the real world. But for now I shall relax. It's the holidays. Thanksgiving with my grandpa. Not the usual of the entire family cramped in a small house eating stuffing and having punch. It is quite sad. My family has fallen apart. No one wants to get together for the holidays anymore. It's depressing. And seeing as I'll be in Italy for Christmas it might be the same situation as Thanksgiving. I dislike the thought. But what can I do, I try to set up family get togethers and everyone is too busy. How are you too busy for family? So so sad..